This is the question I kept asking myself after I was told that I was picked for the show. I knew I didn't like my body the way it was, but I also knew I loved donuts, chocolate, cake, cookies, etc....I didn't know if I didn't like how unhealthy I was more than I liked all of the sweets. I was very conflicted. I mean, so conflicted that I sat at the table crying for 2 weeks before filming began. I would cry over everything. I cried over thinking I wouldn't be able to get a dozen donuts from Krispy Kreme on Talk Like a Pirate Day. I cried over thinking I would never bake again. I cried over not eating cookies anymore. I cried over no more ice cream. After all of the crying, I came to the conclusion that it was time. It was now or never. There are so many people out there that would give anything for this opportunity. I knew that I had to do this and I had to give it my all. I knew the sugar high feeling you get from sweets wouldn't compare to actually loving myself and being healthy. This was the hardest decision I have ever had to make, but I know it was the best decision. I am so much healthier and happier now and I picked a plan that I can still have sweets. I just learned a new way to eat them- never at home and never alone. It makes it so much more special when you eat sweets this way. Change is hard, but it is so worth it!